Summers over? :(

Well this is a bit late. Summer has been over for a bit. I feel like I got back to school and barely had time to hit the ground running. Surprisingly after a summer of lazing about, working, and doing a lot of nothing (best break ever!) I fell back into the routine of chicken with no head quite quickly. I think it helps that I had meetings prior to school starting so it kind of got me back into that mindset. The first few weeks of fall are always the roughest. All organizations have meetings about recruiting and general meetings soon after to keep membership up so it's like a whirlwind of meetings and then before you know it, it's exam time.

I think I've lost my mind. I'm an officer for several organizations, taking a full credit load (I maxed out my elective credits), and I have my pharmacy job that I work 13 hours every other week, plus my work study job at school that's about 5 hours a week (not much). And that's not even to the point where I think I've gone off the deep end.

I think I've gone off the deep end because I am thinking about taking on a third job as a school tutor. Money has been a little tight and I am doing a lot as a P-3 from campus things to conferences and unfortunately those conferences cost money. I don't max out on my student loans because I consider it something way too frivolous when I know I don't need all of it. However, I think I may have gone slightly too conservatively. I've always had the mindset of, take what you need for the essentials- tuition, rent, and food. Whatever else you want to spend money on, you work to pay for it.

It's really all the same as my first two years of pharm school. I think I may have bit off more than I can chew this time. I really hope I can handle everything I seem to have gotten myself into this year.

So what do you think? Yay or nay to the tutoring gig?

Honey boo boo child

Sure, most of us have seen that crazy video about the child beauty queen that chugs mountain dew like a fiend. I’ll admit that I laughed at that video and how ridiculous this all was. But now I’m terrified. They are giving this kid and her family a TV show.

Seriously? I know we are a country of cheap laughs and mind rotting reality TV, but really all we’re doing by giving people like this a TV show is to reward and encourage this idiotic behavior. What kind of message are we sending to these people and everyone in the US? That being stupid, obnoxious, and annoying as hell is awesome?

Personally, I’m not a fan of reality TV. Everything that embodies reality TV infuriates me. I like having a good time just as much as everyone else, but all reality TV is about is encouraging narcissism and idiotic behavior among my peers.

I think what annoys me the most is that our country rewards idiocy and perpetuates the horrible reputation that everyone else in the world has about Americans. Why do we not value education like we do sports? The average American reads at a 3^rd grade level, and that’s being generous. Don’t get me wrong, I love sports. I played a number of sports growing up through high school. I played in a work league after I graduated from college. I love sports, but I don’t believe that people should value sports above education.

Sorry… I’ll get off my soap box now, but this whole thing just really irritated me. 

Actual Vacation!

I finally went on an actual vacation! One that involved no work (ok, I did have a conference call on the way to the airport and minor loose ends),  no school work, no one yelling at me, I had a week a wonderful week away from the monotony of living at home for the summer and working in retail.

I feel wonderful. I didn't get to do everything I wanted to, but I do have a new dive buddy back home and I am preparing for a few dives before summers end. I still can't believe it's nearly the end of July. I am not ready to be stuck in a classroom all day. Don't get me wrong, I love school, but I'm not ready to be chained to the library again.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!

SSDD

My poor neglected blog. I don't know what it is, but while out of school I find myself rarely on my computer. Sure, my smart phone is like an extension of my arm, but I rarely turn on my laptop and peruse the internet like I would in school. I guess that's what happens when you aren't trying to procrastinate every second of every day.

That and I really have nothing new to share. I've spent most of the summer working and spending time with family and trying to get back into shape. At this point I feel like I need a vacation from summer break, or maybe I just need an actual vacation. Actually what I need is a day (or three) where I can just lock myself in my room alone and read. I love being social, but I think I am at my limit and need some hermit time to recoup.

You know what I hate about community pharmacy? How it never fails that at 1 minute to closing someone will come in and one or both of the following will happen:

A) they need 5+ Rx's to fill (from like 4 days ago) that absolutely has to be filled RIGHT THIS MOMENT OR I'M GONNA DIE. And all I want to do is drop the metal door down and run.
B) person above will either have never been here before and suddenly have no idea which is their rx insurance card OR they have and don't have their new insurance card OR some other insurance headache

My favorite is that I've had two patients in the last week try to tell me that if I call their insurance company the insurance company will lower their copay. BAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA. What. Welcome to the real world, what am I supposed to say?! You want a lower copay why don't you complain and see how long it takes before your insurance company laughs at you. One actually said to me, "you must be new at this. If you just call the insurance company and tell them to charge me less, they will."

I nearly fell over laughing after he finally left. If shit like that actually worked, I wouldn't feel like a douchebag for having to charge an obscene amount of money for a poor person that needs their cancer medication because their insurance company is charging them a couple grand for a copay because I could get them to lower it. I always feel like an asshole, even though there's really nothing I can do about it and I'm really just the price messenger.

SUMMAH TIME!

The long anticipated summer has arrived!!! It feels so amazing to not have to study all the time or sit in a hot classroom all day! This will probably get old really quickly, but for now I am enjoying the lazy days, getting some actual sunlight time, and working. Ok, so I'm not enjoying working... but it's something to do and it pays me. Plus it keeps my counseling skills sharp.

It's going to be a busy summer hopefully. This is my last summer for forever since I go on rotations next summer. I have several graduations ranging from middle school all the way to pharmacy school, weddings, and hopefully I can squeeze in some traveling! I've also started working out 4 times a week, which is a huge change from my lazy sit in the library all week routine. It's kicking my ass, but it feels so good to really be challenged physically again. Plus I am getting fatter and fatter... that needs to stop!

I'm not sure how much I will update this blog over the summer. I'm  not even sure what I would update it with. Probably phunny pharmacy stories.

Like I have a pharm tech that typed a script I took from a physician and changed the refill qty to whatever she wanted instead of the number I clearly wrote. Apparently because she didn't agree with the number. Ummmmm yes, sometimes the numbers don't make sense because some physicians are special BUT you type what is written (as long as it doesn't break any laws) because it's their decision and this one actually had a valid reason. Which she would have known if she just freaking asked. She's been getting on my nerves mostly because I am pretty sure she has no idea what the f- she is doing which makes a busy pharmacy 10x more stressful. For someone that's been with the company for years, there's really no excuse for how incompetent she is.

Whoops. Sorry, left over work frustration. I have just wanted to scream lately at work because when I have to work with her, she is so slow that I end up answering all the phone calls while typing or filling prescriptions because she needs to stare at an empty bottle for 20 minutes in order to fill it?! If I don't the numbers just keep piling up and people start yelling at me.

If I could, I'd fire her ass.

It makes me grateful for the other (amazing) techs that I work with. But I seriously legit do not like this one at all.

It's also frustrating that the pharmacists I work with take advantage of my intern license which means I not only get to pick up the slack of stupid lazy tech, I pick up their work, too. I legit would rather go back to school, but being paid is kind of nice. They need to give me a fucking raise though. Jesus.

School's Out!

Another year come and gone!

Going through it all made it feel like an eternity. My last week of P2 year was probably one of the longest weeks of my life. Actually, aren’t finals weeks always the longest weeks of your life? It’s a weird time warp where you panic about not having enough time to learn all the material you need to study, but at the same time it feels like the week is never going to end and neither will the exams.

I have officially taken all my exams, passed all my courses and I am officially 50% of the way to my PharmD! It’s been a bit of a tough year for me emotionally which made this school year a bit tough. I somehow pulled through without too many hits on my grades. Trying to pull focus when you need it and your brain doesn’t want to provide it was probably the most challenging part of it all. I found myself sitting in the library for hours staring at the same page.

My melodramatic side was unsure if I could even finish out this year. By the time the last month or two of school rolled around I was out of motivation, focus, and fucks to give. Classic burn out? I guess it’s a good thing pharm school costs an arm, a leg, and probably your first born. It’s pretty much the only reason I didn’t fully give up. I did pretty mediocrely though.

Oh well, it’s my last summer before rotations! I am going to enjoy it and hope I don’t want to die this time next year.

just a quick update

As I am writing this a part of me is nagging me reminding me I have two exams to study for this week. One of which is tomorrow. I seem to have dropped into this lull and I don’t like it. I feel tired all the time, unwilling to do much aside from lie in bed and waste the day away. It took me 6 hours yesterday to drag myself from bed to get out of my apartment and just do…. Something, anything.
I’m not sure what set me off really. My ex and I are restarting our friendship. It’s actually been quite nice. I’m just worried because at this point I feel rather vulnerable and wonder if I may fall in love with her again for all the wrong reasons because it feels safe. I’m not sure what has brought me to this point, but I am trying my best to shake it off. I hate feeling this way. I hope it passes, soon.

Sorry about the not so uplifting post.