Saturday, May 30, 2009

Re-fueling the passion

For a while, the tedium and crazy patients had been getting to me and I was starting to really hate my job. When you are being yelled at for most of your day, or being stared at for 10 minutes while you work can be very irritating.

Today, was surprisingly an exception. One of my interns was here today and I think he really helped me refuel my passion for the profession. It started off a bit... worse than most days. I walked into a mess, I had to special order a medication to make a cream for a patient (more complicated than regular meds), special suspension to make from powders, and things were super busy. Within 2 hours, I had been yelled at, my intern was cussed at, and there were just a lot of problems.

After things settled down and everything cleaned up properly things got a lot better. I am now referred to as Encyclopedia Carolyn. Got a problem? Get Carolyn. Can't fix it? Get Carolyn. It can be irritating when I am doing a bunch of different things at once, but it's always hilarious when they say "What the hell did you just do? You just pushed a bunch of buttons and it's fixed... like magic!" It's nice to share and teach people. Mostly because if I teach them they won't bother me again and of course to spread the wealth of knowledge. Granted I feel bad when I just fix it and not teach them because people are staring and rushing me.

Applications open soon. I am really nervous and excited. The prospect of getting lots of rejection letters is not something I am looking forward to.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Disappointment with a silver lining.

So I woke up this morning to not so great news. I still can't wrap my mind around the idea that the California Supreme Court could rule 6-1 to uphold prop 8. Really? 6-1??? At least they didn't forcibly divorce 18000 couples.

It still blows my mind that a simple civil right is so easy to deny when they are gay. Gay Marriage, a limited time offer! Expires 11/4/08.

We're supposed to be a progressive state, but what I've seen in the past 6 months we're not holding our own. I know one day we'll all look back on this and giggle at the ridiculousness and hilarity about how people over reacted because gay people want to get married.

I've recently gotten into using twitter, and I had a twitterthon (I really have no idea what to call it) with a friend of mine in London. She was outraged by someone she knew claiming that gay people were acting like little kids throwing a tantrum over 'not getting what they wanted' and that 'gays could have it a lot worse in America.' Yes, we can have it a lot worse, but then again many of us still face the fear of being assaulted because of our sexuality. Even in CA, hate crimes are a reality and no one is safe from it. I don't want to be scared to be who I am.

I was at a rally today protesting the decision to uphold prop 8. Being with such a large wonderful crowd of people was amazing. It was energized and full of hope and love. I'm not giving up this fight, but I'm not just fighting for my state. I'm fighting for this whole country to wake up and realize that this is a ridiculous thing to fight about. My goal is for our children to someday look back on this and have the same reaction as we do when we hear that interracial marriages used to be illegal. Until we can laugh about this day, you can bet that I, along with many many other people, will continue fighting for what is right.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

All cultured out.

Wow. So much has happened. so I'm going to keep it as brief as possible.

I saw Dirty Dancing, the musical, which was pretty good. The guy that sang 'Time of Your Life' made me swoon. I think I fell in love. Just kidding, but his voice was amazing. Then I saw Grease the next day with Taylor Hicks. He made the best of his one song, I wasn't really interested in him as much as the musical, but it was an added bonus. They changed the arrangement. I. Hated. It. Totally interrupts the storyline. The people in front of us hated it more and left during intermission. I wish we stole their seats because the large smelly man next to me was invading my space and then accidentally sat on me when Taylor Hicks came out to play his new single after the show. My sister laughed at me.

Wednesday I saw Shen Yun Divine Performing Arts. That was amazing beyond words, the traditional dance, and stories were pretty amazing. check it out ;)

What sucks is that I've been feeling sick on and off lately. HOLY JEEZ THE SWINE FLU! Ha. Ha. No. If only I had an excuse like that to get out of work. Speaking of which, it kinda just dropped off the radar eh? Maybe everyone realized they were panicking over.... the flu.

After 3 musicals in a span of 5 days, I thought I'd be all cultured out. I'm really just exhausted from people.