Wednesday, November 19, 2008


Before I start, the CA Supreme court has agreed to review if prop 8 is constitutional or unconstitutional! I really hope they do agree that it's unconstitutional to have an amendment that eliminates the rights of a minority. I still can't believe proponents of prop 8 see nothing wrong with "eliminating the rights" of any group of people.

Now back to our regularly scheduled program.

Ok, so we have a new assistant manager for the front store. I'm sad because I miss our old AM. He was awesome and now that he's gone I have to drag totes of drugs from the stockroom to the pharmacy and vial boxes etc by myself. Usually the guys do it for me, but since we're down two managers they call me to do it. I make the worst first impression I swear. I think I'm one of those people that grow on you. You're wary (or don't even like me) at first, then you just realize I'm just crazy and silly and learn to love it. I think it's because I can have a strong personality.

Anyways, so my first impression of our new trainee AM? I thought she was a new tech. I made a face and looked at my friend and go "Dude, who's the new tech?" My friend laughs and says tells me that's the new AM. D'oh. It's not my fault her sweater makes her look like she works in the pharmacy. It doesn't help that I can't remember people's names for the life of me. I <3 name tags.

Well a few weeks have passed I've gotten to know her. She pretty funny, and I seem to always make an ass out of myself around her. Then I kinda realize after I made yet another strange face at her... oh shit. I think I have a crush on her. SHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT! Will this stop me from making an ass out of myself? Totally doubt it. If anything I'll act more like an idiot around her. I'm such a putz around people I like. Blargh.

I never had a problem with being attracted to anyone I've worked with in the past 18 months, and I've worked at a lot of stores. I think it's because most pharmacy people are Asian, and for some reason I'm not really attracted to Asians. The rest of them were men so no problem there.

=( She's management! And I think she's straight, although anyone who tells me they used to play softball makes me think otherwise. haha.

I can't help it. This is not good. Maybe I'll just get it all out of my system here. You may want to stop reading now hehe.

She's definitely the type of person I'd be attracted to. She's cute, giggles a lot, laughs at my really stupid jokes, funny, and is easily frightened when I sneak up on her. Yes, I sneak up on people for fun. I told you I'm an ass! She makes the cutest noise when I dash by her in an aisle and go "Boo!". Then when I really do need her help she'll respond with "Oh, so now you need my help huh?" Of course all I do is grin stupidly back.

And of course if I have nothing to say, I'll make a face at her and then I'll have the biggest dorky smile on my face. And the smile she shoots back at me? So cute.

This can only end up badly. Hopefully this will be one of my couple weeks crushes and not the kind that happened with my straight best friend in college. I was in love with her for three years. Then I left and the feelings faded, then I went back for a visit and fell in love all over again.

What is it with me and straight women?


mewi said...

Ruh Roh indeed, you seem to have a good connection with this girl. But yeah it could end badly, I've been there before, I think we all have <3 But then again, maybe your connection is good due to a mutual attraction for one another =3

Maybe you should step up the connection to going out and doing things with her, you know... outside of the job.

But you aren't attracted to Asian girls!? OMG pure blasphemy, I <3 Asian girls XD If I could be surrounded by them all day, I'd die of a heart attack lol.

The best friend thing... I've been there too! It sucks, shes straight, sometimes you think there might be a little something there but then they reassure you... which makes it totally suck more WAH cause you'd rather live in a dreamland then face the firing squad.

The Surprise Dyke said...

I don't know, I always fall for the straight women too. Maybe it's the heels, makeup, never fails...

mewi said...

Hi, I added a comment but I don't think it came through, maybe you want to talk on messenger or email or something ^^?

Email I need more lesbian friends to talk wif =3

sheA said...

scoobyLIshous- straight women....

Carolyn said...

Mewi- I'm pretty sure she has a boyfriend haha. I don't know, my brother and I are both into white girls. I guess we're just white washed Asians. I screen my comments, and on Thursdays I work and go to school from 7am til 8 or 9pm so I don't really have time to go online.

TSD- I know right? Even though I'm far from girly, there's something about a girl dressing up that is insanely adorable and sexy.

Shea- all I have to say is LOL <3